Guess It's The End...

Okay people... I'm back but not for long, I guess... Not feeling too rich these days... feeling down and out... God! I feel like I keep being a burden to everyone... Why don't I just... *sigh* I wish life was as simple as that... Yeah, it's complicated alright... I can't fathom the future, I can't even predict the now... Hahahahahahahaha... Maybe I should just...

Put An End To My Misery...

Mana mungkin ku melupakanmu
Terlalu sayang hati ini
Sedetik pun aku tak mampu
Berpisah darimu, oh Kasih...

Ku tak bisa memejamkan mata
Bila sehari tak bertemu
Kau pelita, penerang jiwa
Hidupku, matiku, kepadamu...

Walaupun kau bukan yang pertama
Hadir di dalam sanubariku
Namun kau penyebab segalanya
Pengubat, penyejuk, jiwa ini...

Terlalu sayang ku kepadamu...
Janganlah kau sakiti aku, lupakan aku, tinggalkan aku...

Me, Myself And I

True, I might not be the best mother in the world... But at least I try to be one... A mother who'll be there for her children, a mother who's always around... But trying and doing are 2 very DIFFERENT things...

I'm not a Saint, neither am I a Devil incarnate... I'm not proud to be me, but at least I've come to terms with being who I am... What I am and have become is immaterial, nonetheless... What I am striving to be... Now... That is what my whole being is focussed on...

I love my children... All along I've realised that my selfishness in keeping them with me might have destroyed any future they might have had... But, then again, they're just MIGHT BEs... Heck, they ARE better off with me...

I carried them in my womb for 9 whole months and more... I suffered hardships and severe pain, just so I could bring them into this world, safe, hold them, placate them, LOVE them... When I was pregnant with Ufa, Allah sahaja lah yang tahu betapa azabnya aku mempertahankan kandunganku...

Looking back, I don't think I was ever in love with their father... It was more like sympathy and it's never in my nature to be unkind to anyone else... That's what my mother taught me and that's what I'll teach my children to be... But I'll teach them to stand up for their beliefs and to stand up against any wrongs done to them or to anyone else... And to stand firm in their decisions and roots... Because family will always be there for you, no matter what... And those are the people closest to you and who you feel kinship with... Family doesn't need to be related by blood... Islam teaches us the spirit of Brotherhood... Yeah, sometimes it's difficult to practice the Sunnah but we've all gotta try, at least when it comes to family...

To the people who knows about my past, you ain't seen the whole of it yet... And to the people who are my future, I will be the best I can be and I'll do anything, ANYTHING, to protect these people that I Love so very much...


~ Eliza signing out ~

OUR RIDE

Check out my hubby's ride, people...

Hey, hey, heyyyyyyyy... So what have you people been doing huh? Me? I've been busy... Hahahahaha... Busy fantasizing about a life I know I will never get to have. Busy realising that life still has a lot to offer me. And, busy making myself busy so that I won't have the chance to remember my past.

Aniways, I'm bored and dead tired. Sick of this sickening world, which is full of sickening people around me (my hubby n children not included... ohhh, n those people close to me lah (just in case you guys 'terasa'))...

We're getting a new ride soon so I posted the pictures of our current ride. I'll miss her (name's Hadiana btw) but I bet we'll have fun with our new one!!! So this is a tribute to Diana and us!

Woohooo!!! Up for a Fazer anyone? Wakakakakaka... (I wish... *sigh*) Nah... Getting a spark instead... Gotcha!!! I'll post pictures of our new bike soon yah...

Eliza T signing out