Well Hello Again...

So wat exactly hav i been doin? Hehehehehe.... nothing i guess... juz dat i feel too lethargic n tired n sumtimes too goddamn ass lazy to log on n write stuff onto my blog... muahhahahahahahaha... (dat was my evil laugh)... rite now me listening to an ost from om shanti om... title's main agar kahoon...

Tumko paya hain to jaise koya huun
Kehna jahubhi to tumse kya kahun...

hehehehe... wonder if dats correct... chiaoz....

Found this nice quote from AM.com

Allah berfirman:

"Ketika Aku menciptakan seorang wanita, ia diharuskan untuk menjadi seorang yang istimewa. Aku membuat bahunya cukup kuat untuk menopang dunia; namun, harus cukup lembut untuk memberikan kenyamanan."

"Aku memberikannya kekuatan dari dalam untuk mampu melahirkan anak dan menerima penolakan yang seringkali datang dari anak-anaknya."

"Aku memberinya kekerasan untuk membuatnya tetap tegar ketika orang-orang lain menyerah, dan mengasuh keluarganya dengan penderitaan dan kelelahan tanpa mengeluh."

"Aku memberinya kepekaan untuk mencintai anak-anaknya dalam setiap keadaan, bahkan ketika anaknya bersikap sangat menyakiti hatinya."

"Aku memberinya kekuatan untuk mendukung suaminya dalam kegagalannya dan melengkapi dengan tulang rusuk suaminya untuk melindungi hatinya."

"Aku memberinya kebijaksanaan untuk mengetahui bahwa seorang suami yang baik takkan pernah menyakiti isterinya, tetapi kadang menguji kekuatannya dan ketetapan hatinya untuk berada disisi suaminya tanpa ragu."

"Dan akhirnya, Aku memberinya air mata untuk dititiskan. Ini adalah khusus miliknya untuk digunakan bilapun ia perlukan."

"Kecantikan seorang wanita bukanlah dari pakaian yang dikenakannya, susuk yang ia tampilkan, atau bagaimana ia menyisir rambutnya.Kecantikan seorang wanita harus dilihat dari matanya, kerana itulah pintu hatinya, tempat dimana cinta itu ada."

Kirimkan Firman ini kepada setiap wanita yg anda kenali....

Anda akan menambah harga diri ciptaan Indah,wanita! Setiap Wanita itu Cantik...


Wassalaam.

Heyy Heyy...

Hehehe... Tis my second time bloggin.. could get use to this ya noe... cut my hair today... more freedom n less weight on my head... (actualli my boyfriend cut it for me... isn't that sweet?... awwwwww..i'll post my new self online tomorrow... now bad hair day ah..)

one of my babies not here wif me at my mom's plc... missing her loads but i guess i'll juz have to fous on d one baby wif me here... its been a while since we last spent tim together juz d 2 of us... but im missing d younger one loads... juz lookin at her pic brings me tears... n heartache...

so today's another day in my life... boring i guess... wish i could save up enuf cash for a holiday overseas wif my babies... juz d 3 of us together on a faraway beach... ahhhhhh.... dat would be a godsend n heaven for me... i wish huh...

when i get my month's pay i'm gonna take both of dem for an outing... spend d nite at a hotel smack in d middle of town n bring dem shopping or juz walking arnd town... i reallie2 miss d times when it was juz d 3 of us at home... together... eating sleeping bathing together... i miss dat... now d younger one no longer seems to want me nemore... dats juz sad but dats da way things hav 2 be... for now... at least... me hoping to stabilize myself save loads of cash, get my own place... plus a maid if i cn afford it... (hehehe... n a husband to boot... if all goes well dat is..)

So im guessing dis is it for tonite... if i wake up again in d middle of d nite i'll write again... hehehe... here's to a more positive outlook on life!

welcome....

These two cuties are my favourite people in d whole wide world... they r my princesses... my life... my whole world revolves arnd dem... i live n die for dem... i'd do anything for dem...

My daughters: from left Siti Nur Ufa'irah (12/04/2006) n Siti Nur 'Umairah (27/02/2004)...

I love dem so very very much... but in order to give dem everything, I've had to give up precious time with dem... I had to give up a LOT n sumtimes no one understands wat I went thru n am still goin thru... and it hurts when I do so much n sacrifice so much for my daughters' sakes but pple take it dat I'm being a bad mother... IT HURTS!

I mean.. wat do I do when I'm d onli mom n dad dey will ever hav? Being a single mom of two is no joke... N being d onli 1 who is geneating d income can b very tiring n life sapping... I'm very thankful to my family members who hav been helping to lighten my load... I'd hav died wifout them all... At least my babies hav family lookin out 4 dem... but sometimes... I miss d days wen I'm always at home watchin dem n takg care of dem... back when I wasn't working... but I am committed to bringing dem up so I had to work n d time spent wif dem was d BIGGEST sacrifice I had to make... It still breaks my heart whenever I have to leave for work...

Haiz... I had an extremely difficult time trying to get my babies out of MCYS custody... esp Ufa... I onli got to hold her once ftr she was born... ftr dat...

But dats all in d past now... wat matters now is dat I haf dem safe in my hands n its up 2 me do all I can to bring dem up nice n proper... dey r VERY PRECIOUS to me... like I said... dey'r my princesses... n to dem I am their QUEEN... their evrythin'...